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I like being human lately.
When I’m happy, I let myself be.
When I’m sad, I let myself be.
When I’m angry, I let myself be.
Over the years, I have tried to grapple with my existence:
What does it mean to be a spiritual person or an "awakened" human? How do we find the balance between doing and learning vs. being and knowing?
I am sure you agree that all of this is too deep to unpack today—me too. That is the privilege of being human.
We don’t need to understand.
We are the stars.
And we are also iron.
We are infinite.
Yet we are also finite.
We know.
But we also don’t know.
So far, my spiritual journey has been full of irony.
For example:
The more I understand who I am and how I fit into this universe, the more I realize I don't understand. I literally don’t know sh*t.
The more I connect to my highest, lightest and most-zen, the more my deepest and darkest wounds want to be seen, too.
That is the irony of healing, and it is also the death of our ego.
Our ego wants us to believe that we are only moving forward when we get happier, better, safer, and richer. So nothing is as scary to our ego as us accepting:
We can be happy and fulfilled.
All the while crying gentle tears every other day.
All of this is allowed.
It’s perfect.
Something inspiring:
The holidays mean there is more time for gentle reflection 💗. As we end 2022, I want to share some resources that have helped me recently:
A Star is Born: an article on the birth and death of stars and how we are all made of the same magical stuff
Ending Guilt: a video by Kyle Cease on how to release conscious and unconscious guilt from our bodies (life-changing)